si kecil Zahin Erza (a-een)

sudah tumbuh gigi. padahal masih menyusu badan sepenuhnya. aih..saat menaip inipun terasa ngilu, mengenangkan situasi gigi dan puting. faham? tak faham, sudah..anda blom mencapai tahap 25sx. hahaha.

teething at 6months old, while still fully nursed is something new to me. all other three of my children started teething at the earliest of 8 months, and they have started baby food with continuance of breast milk (this way i don't have to bring milk powder everytime we went out for any occasions..huhu). but my little a-een, he's quite an excitement. at 6 months old, he has a teeth, started lifting up his butt, maybe to begin sitting up on his own and crawl. move around on his belly, beautifully quick. a blink of an eye, he's under the dining table. next, hie's in the playroom. then, he's in the kitchen. my oh my...did i mention he's cleverly sulk? knows its bath time when i take off his clothes? and looking at the sink as if he knows that that's his bath tub? huhuhuhu...

and one thing for sure; he's grown healthy and much more handsome day after day!!

i'm only human

great phrase, eh?

yeah. have to agree.
but that doesn't mean that i have to just do and accept everything blindly.

that too, doesn't mean one can do whatever they please towards me, and later blaming the fate.

what a loser.

how snobbish

weird. people tends to be a snob regardless any situations they are in. worst, they are way too low and inadequate and have no rights at all to become a snob. ha ha ha..like snobbish is a job, one has to apply for it.

why do i bother to talk about this? because i face the snobbishness since so long ago and still am now. guess i'm destined to be surrounded by them. ha ha ha!

one situation:
my hubby drives a Proton Juara







it is a copycat version of Mitsubishi town box








what gets in my nerve is, the look people gave us when they saw us in it. what? we can't drive or be in that car? search online, about its capability. of course the town box is much better but hey, where's the thankful behaviour? how could they, who drives a kancil, rides a motorcycle, or worst ever, using public transportation, being such a jerk on us? at least we have a spacey ride, we won't get soaked in wet when it rains. and better yet, we don't have to wait for hours for public rides. damn these people!!! those two college girls i saw at the bus stop near Giant Hypermarket Section 13 the other day, who made me wanna write this badly, i cursed you!

hahaha..

am i being mean?

had my sleepless nights..and i don't complaint, much.

yesterday my little Zahin was brought to our panel clinic for his 6 months old immunization. since he was coughing quite bad since a few days ago, i asked for some cough treatment for him too. looking at him, with his not-so-well-look and sleepy eyes, sadden me. he didn't make any scenes though. just his cough, breaking the silence of the night. woke me up every hour. so was his eldest sister, Dalia. oh my. what could a mother do besides attending her sick children? pray. pray for their wellness and healthiness.

complaint? wanted to, but what good will it do to me? nothing.

welcoming new reader, new friend..(thanks for dropping by, Terra Kuhn)

counting days to New Year..and end of school holidays..

yeap..

new year is just around the corner.

school holidays are about to end. no thrills, no excitements.

just counting days...

how lately i am feeling blue

blue is my favourite colour.

but definitely not my favourite mood. been very cranky these days. hate it! a simple nudge is enough to make me explode. haih..how come? maybe because of him..how i miss him being around. hate to mention it but he seems too distance away. (urghhhh!!! can i bang my head on the wall now?)

had nausea last friday. first thing that crossed my mind; pregnant!

then snapped up! no way lah. i am still breastfeeding a-een in full. no menstruation yet. takde..takde..hahahaha..

haven't done any checkups. malas pun ada. gila yakin pun ada.

Salam Maal Hijrah

terima kasih eiman23x

Semoga tahun baru ini membawa banyak perubahan positif kepada kita semua. dengan syarat perubahan itu harus dijanamula oleh diri sendiri.

p/s: jangan lupa doa akhir tahun lepas asar nanti (3 X) dan doa awal tahun lepas maghrib nanti (3X juga) dan pada hari esok (1 Muharam).

Selamat Berjuang, Harimau Malaysia

kalau kalah juga, pastinya mereka akan cakap ianya akibat tekanan penyokong dan peminat tanahair yang meletak harapan terlalu tinggi pada mereka.

percayalah!

Sekolah Satu Aliran - Apa yang anda faham mengenainya?

bila membaca tentang perkara ini, dan melihat komen yang pelbagai, aku jadi sedikit kecewa, marah, bengang dan akhir sekali, malu.

kenapa agaknya?

1. kecewa sebab isu ini sudah lama.
2. marah sebab baru sekarang sibuk2, dan tgk tak lama nanti ianya reda tanpa sebarang tindakan apa pun.
3. bengang sebab cakap cakap kosong yang bergegar di parlimen.
   
4. malu, sebab 'bapak' ramai yang tak faham apa maksud sekolah satu aliran tu. bengap!
   

readers, don't jump straight to conclusions. think wise. aku tau, lepas ni mesti ramai kutuk2 aku, dengan menyelitkan bau2 politik dalam kutukan mereka. chit, pooddaaahhhh!!

ada sesiapa nak fruit tart, sebagai hantaran tunang, kahwin atau sekadar menambah menu minum petang?

yang atas tu, packaging dia kalau nak buat hantaran. yang bawah, rupa close up dia.
gila sedap ni...tak tipu. Demi Allah. .

harga? tanya tuan punya diri yaaaaaaaaaaa....(Pn. Suzy 0163323626)

aku tolong promo untuk kawan. kawan baik aku yang satu kelas dgn aku kat sekolah rendah. sama2 prefect, sama2 gila dan sama2 huru hara. yang tak samanya, kelas masa sekolah menengah. dia pandai setingkat setengah dari aku. huhuhu...dah tu, bertambah lak tingkat kepandaian dia, bila dia masuk UTM, aku masuk alam sentral je..ahahahhaha...

Gee, aku sayang ko!

Pekan Koboi KLIA menemukan aku dan dia..

note: bila agaknya aku akan berkesempatan pula bertemu para blogger dearest yang lain ya?



yaaaa..

sila jangan cemburu ya.

sesungguhnya aku menggigil tatkala terlihat kelibat seseorang yang aku rasa macam kenal. lantas aku segera mendail nombor beliau yg tersimpan dlm hp aku. tatkala aku lihat dia menjawabnya, aku keseronokan kerana telahan dan sangkaan aku benar.

dia ku dakap, seolah telah lama kenal. sedangkan komunikasi kami selama ini hanya dalam dunia maya. sesekali bertukar suara dalam telefon. anak-anak aku, pantang jumpa kenalan aku atau papa mereka, maka secara automatik akan jadi kenalan mereka juga.

terima kasih Elsa Soraya.

terima kasih juga Eireen Camelia; krn tanpa blog dia aku tak mungkin berkenalan dengan si manis ini.

My Children..how tired and fun and awesome at one time of being a mother.

my beautiful Dalia. always dear to my heart.

my Ziyad. a handsome boy, responsible and funny too.

my Dalili. need i say more?

my Zahin. a miracle when i was in despair.

how they are tiring to be handled and attended.

but as time flies, you'll miss the misbehaviour that got you laughing talking about it with your spouse later in bed.

how i love them all.

a note to my children (part 2)

as to my darling Dalili,

a big sigh and smile on my face as I'm thinking about you, girl.

my third child, my second princess and the first one came out to the world through the 'window'. well, that's the term among parents for Cesarean babies. she was a bunden of joy. why? because she was so different! her eyes were big but slanted a bit. she has two 'pusar' (what do we call in it English, ya?) on her head and as in Malays understandings, a person who has this mark, is hard-to-handle and very naughty. my oh my. she is. but she is also very pretty and sweet. her smile, her eyes, her small figures, her behaviour, herself. as i'm typing this, she's right next to me, singing her own song while her hands mingling with the connection cables of my hubby's laptop. she's naughty, indeed. two years old and yet so many 'accidents' happened. she had once pushed her hand into a spinning fan; quite a cut she got there. she also had the nerve of touching the hot-currently-in-use iron (this happened at my mums, she was watching my mum ironing some clothes. luckily my mum acted quickly by immediately soaking her hand into a bowl of water.) she stumbled so many times, fell of off the stairs, chairs, stools, sofas, tripped over her toys, even her own feet and fell. cut her inner upper lips due to that and so many other things. but, those incidents doesn't stop her from being active. and yes, she's also a funny girl. at 2, she has so many ideas one can imagine about. a good friend and at the same time a furious enemy of her brother, Ziyad. i love every word she said for she has a beautiful and sweet and sometimes annoyingly loud voice. she's a cry baby, too. even being softly warned, she'd cry. well, not by me. as a mother who gave birth to them, my children don't tend to be scared with me. at least, not until i raised a hanger or a belt as a warning material. but with their papa, oh yeah..they'd run like mice.

Zahin Erza.

this boy is a miracle. I'd talk about him for hours yet the excitement will still be the same. goose bums, of being excited will always appear. he's almost 6 months old now and his progress, unbelievable. smiling? started when he was only 2 months old. he's turning around now, here and there. had once went accidentally out of the house when i forgot to shut the grill door (betul ke perkataan aku nih). fell of off the bed? twice! car seat? thrice! haha... what a memory.

i love my children, all very much. i always pray for the best of them, now and in the future. had once my hubby and i talked about what would they be when they grow up and suddenly i got scared. scared of the thought of they'd go abroad and i will be left home. no longer being near to them. how would they feel, i got myself thinking. leaving mama behind. will i still be alive by that time? will i still be healthy and able to deal with their needs, behaviour and such? i had my biggest sigh in wonder that day; inside. without my hubby noticing it.

thinking of their future alone, i become melancholic. only God knows how much I love them all.

today..

I was lying in bed, nursing my baby Zahin as this thought wanders. And i decided to put it here.

There are too many things happening in life that writings alone can't really cope; to release some tenses and pressures. In virtual reality, one need to behave accordingly. Though some might feel it (the content) shouldn't be condensed, but many think it's adequate. I, for example, have written about almost everybody in my life but never once that I've missed being misunderstood. Yes. I was often condemned, harshly, it hurt me badly inside out. But, I took it as a lesson. I don't mind if the condemners are outsiders, anonymous etc. If what they said has a point, I take it. If it is just rubbish, I'll toss it away.

I was once condemned by someone who thought she knew me well for she's a friend of one of my family members, but i didn't reply. Why? Because she only talk rubbish. Not a single fact. Being old in age doesn't mean one know everything about the world, and youngsters aren't so stupid that they don't know anything at all. I'm a tolerant person. I argue what's being put wrongly when it certainly right even at the slightest glance. Sometimes, the Malay saying of 'siapa dulu makan garam' can be implemented in certain circumstances and situations.

One thing for sure, THINK BEFORE YOU ACT!

pesanan untuk anak2..(part 1)

nanti kalau dah dewasa...dah pandai membaca, even dah kahwin dan beranak pinak semua, jenguk2 blog mama, ya..

Erza Dalia,

just a note here my dear princess. u brought joyous moment in my life. having you as my first child, is a blessed. i remember saying that u r the most beautiful baby in the world. coz u r mine, of course. there are in fact so many beautiful babies out there but you, are the love of my life. you are the symbol of how much i love your father. as to your father. he loves you dearly, dalia. so much. it shows in every words, actions and reactions he takes on you. i love u too. i watch you dearly in a way you won't notice. because I'm a mother. and i have 3 other children to give attention to. i have to be equal. why i state this out? because i don't want you to feel left out whatever or whenever the situation may be in the future. because, you my dear are a bit the same with me in the inside. your every move and ideas, i somehow can predict. i state this because i don't want you to rebel, like i did. for you'll regret, one day. i state this because i once felt (or still feel?) neglected by my parents (your atuk and opah laa..). why? because they were taught differently. i guess they weren't taught to nurture and express/ show their love to their children, as their parents. and as the result, i felt neglected. but when they turning mature, and one by one their children got married, i think they began to realise or maybe (i said MAYBE) feeling a bit empty. as in losing somebody dear to them. I'm not saying that atuk and opah doesn't love me. as parents, they do..i know. sape tak sayang anak oiiii!! same goes to you, dalia. i love you so much. if u ever felt burdened by whatever we asked you to do regarding you other siblings, it's simply because we trust you and because we know your capability. but hey! whenever we asked you NOT to, that means we were afraid it might hurt you, physically or mentally. bear that in mind, ok dear? we love you, we do.

Ziyad Erza,

boy, u r one good gift from above! we were waiting for you in excitement. to have a boy, is some what a proud moment for every parents. and ziyad, you are also a hard-to-handle boy. you are loving and soft-hearted but also stubborn and sensitive. easily cried, i'd say. but you are also very strong at heart. i love to see how much you love your young sis and bro. the way you evolve and behave around them, put me in awe. you are also protective and picky! unlike your sister, dalia who's more friendlier. but i won't forget the two scenes in life regarding the two of you. scenes where dalia showed her emotion out towards you, ziyad. how she cared and concerned.

1. when ziyad were cycling recklessly and hit the wall
2. when we went out for dinner at jeram, while we were waiting for our order, i took them (except zahin, stayed with papa) to the small jetty there. where we can see the fishermens boat and i told them a bit about fishing. the jetty is fully concreted and the gap between the side pillar (the small ones) were quite spacey. i was warning the kids not to put their head or their legs out for their slippers or them, themselves might fell down to the muddy slope, when suddenly dalia was breathing heavily with eyes red saying 'abis cemana dgn yad punya selipar ni?' Just then i realised, that one of ziyad's slippers had already fell off down there. goodness!!!! how on earth??!! i haven't finished warning! i went down to get it but hell i was too heavy that the muddy slope couldn't hold me. i nagged all the way back to our table. luckily my hubby was in a very good mood that day. he calmly and with smile on his face went down and proudly showed me the slipper he managed to get back. yeah..ok..you are lighter. then only dalia stop crying. while ziyad? emotionless. cried only because i twitched his ear. and because i got mad with him.

Yad, do take care of your sister and other siblings whenever needed. you hold a big responsibility as the eldest son. mama loves you. you are bright and funny too. papa loves you too. it's just that you two have a little in commons, that most of the times both of you seems unacquainted each other. only God knows how i was touched whenever the sight of you and your father had a great moments together, appears.

how i love all of you..so much.

to be continued..

Salam Aidil Adha - knp tak terasa meriahnya?

serius. terbaik rasanya bila aidil adha disambut meriah di tanah suci. malangnya, rezeki utk jejak kaki ke sana belum ada lagi. eh..takde la malang, kan? nak seribu daya..my hubby and i made plans. we would like to visit Makkah insya Allah in 3 years time. then kalau kesihatan alhamdulillah, rezeki melimpah, nak melawat juga 7 wonders of the world tu. ke dah 8 skrg?

me, as usual is busy with kids and chores. at the mo, no recording deals..yet. in short, my part of job is not here, yet. my hubby's part btw, doesn't seem to slowing down. he's busy, almost everyday. and in weekend, especially. in fact, he's currently at work, now..

we went to my in laws this morning. just for a while for my hubby have to leave for Jumaat and work afterwards. thought of going to my mom's but they were on their way to PD. *sigh*

didn't i mention that today isn't as merry?

i wanted to cook rendang but my hubby asked me not to. just mashed potato, that we brought to his parent's house this morning to be paired with his mother's roasted chicken. btw, my mom-in-law is a wonderful cook. she cooks delicious meals, every time. in a way, that sort of encourage me to be a better cook. i cook well (my hubby said so) in western meals, but poor in local dishes. tried and still trying. but hey, i cook udang masak lemak cili api deliciously! and not to forget sambal ayam (hubby's fav), asam pedas, goreng berlada and masak merah.

i'm actually trying to not being bored. pardon my rubbish post. *sigh*

ALERT!! please take note..

check out this number please, for those who have the ability to do so.

012-933 7885

stop disturbing me, ok. if you are some what a long lost friend of mine, confess. if not, go to hell!

I've been wanting to write this for a long time...

1. why there are still dumbs driving cars? how do they passed their test? how did they get their license? driving at night, watch and count on how many car drivers that doesn't turn their headlights on. things as simple as that, how can you forget? it's dangerous. to all drivers on the road. isn't it a priority, to do a checklist on those 5 basic things? adjust your seat accordingly, the rear view mirror, seat belt, side mirror and headlights? haiyohhh!
2. child abandoned, murdered. oh please. you made love, you were caught adultery, got pregnant without married, just please deliver the baby lovingly. if you don't want to carry the responsibility or you couldn't and don't have the ability (financially usually) to raise the child, do what's human suppose to do. seek help. to hell with your family if they neglected you, they're just being inhumane. be wise, please..
3. neglecting parents. whether u have one child, or even 13 children, please take responsibility on what they are doing and where they have gone for that day. no matter you're a housewife/hubby or working parents. children are God's trust bestowed upon us. we as parents are given the responsibility to look after them, the best we could. kids/ children are somewhat and often annoying but hey, they are yours! you sort of 'ask' for it, right? again, be reasonable, be wise.
   
4. girls nowadays. well, it happened before and the cycle goes on. but everytime it does, it gets greater. muslim girls (youngsters between 15-25), behave yourselves, dear. it's okay to have boyfriends, special or not but behaviour is a must. especially those whose wearing tudung. pretty and sweet, don't destroy the beautiful sight by hugging your bf in public, by wearing such a 'see-through' and tightly-cling-to-your-body apparel. honey, it doesn't look good on you. those who aren't wearing tudung, you are not spared. smoking? drinking? in public? yet you claimed you're a muslim? shame on you, girl. go home. seek help. seek advice. no help and advice at home? seek HIM, Allah the almighty. and come, share it with me. i'll try my best to do according to my ability. i'm a nobody, of course. but insya allah, i can lend my ears, just to hear you out.
   

take care. and thank you.

remember, HE's watching.

anak...anak...

dalia kata nak gemuk sikit. sebab semua seluar dah longgar..baju umur 3, 4 tahun pun boleh pakai balik. but now she has start putting on weight. cumanya, seluar dalam masih ada yg longgar2. hehehe..she loves singing. semalam on the way ke jeram for dinner, dia tertido kejap. kami memang biasa pasang cd dalam kereta, atas permintaan anak2. coincidently, memang itu juga minat kami. semalam pasang cd Dewa19; Republik Cinta. dan dalia, masha allah, dalam tidur pun terus menyanyi! ha ha ha. papa dia kata "kalau macam ni, pasang cd mengaji lagi baik." well, pa...

ziyad pula mula kurus. dah nampak slender. ntah kenapa lately dia kurang selera makan. even his fav food pun cuma a few bites, 2,3 suap. and, dia selalu buat hal. ada je yang boleh membuatkan mama papa dia naik angin. nak kata perubahan 'cuaca' tak jugak..sebab dia dah ada 2 org adik. tak cukup manja? aih...even now still tido sama dgn aku. ntah la. mungkin belum datang selera, lepas demam dan batuk2 seminggu yang lalu. tunggu je lah..kot2 ada perubahan. mungkin dalam kepala mula banyak educative input. jadi minat utk makan dikurangkan. he's learning though..very often asking question regarding educational knowledge. sampai bab mekanikal pun dia tanya mama dia. ni semua sebab suka tgk discovery channel. boy, kot..sebab tu suka mekanikal ni. music? no worries..it runs in our families. dia minat drums. dan drum yang ada di studio papa dia tu, dia dah chop. that's why papa tak pernah bawak dia ke studio kalau ada session. sebab dia akan marah orang yang guna drum dia tu..ha ha ha..

si darling dalili pulak. ya tuhan..ampunnnnn..makin nakal dan makin ngada2. masalahnya pulak, dia makin comel. pantang marah sikit, meraung macam kena rotan. pastuh lap air mata asal boleh je. kat sofa la, kat baju mama la, kat kusyen besar la. asal ada kain. geram betol!! bangun tido satu hal...tak boleh la kalau tak merengek. ntah apa kena ntah. membebel pun kuat ni. tah sapa yang diikut tah. bukan main lagi kalau marah2 kakak dan abang dia. dia yang kacau orang, dia yang menangis tak ingat bila kakak/ abang dia marah/ pukul. btw, anak2 aku yang bertiga ni memang cepat tangan. mencubit je keje nyer. tapi dalili pandai ambik hati. ada je nanti keletah dan kerenah dia yg boleh buat mama papa cair dan tak jadi marah. si dua pusar ni, terlebih manja pulak. geram sangat. ha ha ha..

zahin..masih lagi menjadi favorite. maklum, kecik lagi. dah pandai meniarap dan bergolek2 ke sana sini. suara pun dah makin besar dan tinggi. tapi menangis masih lagi syahdu dan menusuk kalbu. buatkan mama akan cepat2 meluru pada dia, walau tengah masak atau mandi. hehehe.. dah pandai main2 sendiri dan sangat pandai tonton tv esp channel 613. sebab playhouse disney tu warnanya terang2 dan a-een sangat responsive. maklum, baby kan peka dengan warna. kalau dalam kereta, tak nak dibaringkan atas riba. nak duduk, sebab nak tgk pemandangan. boleh nampak biji mata dia tu bergerak dengan penuh curiousity. dah tu, konon2 mcm nak pegunkan setiap objek yg lalu tp tak dapat. lawak tgk ekspresi muka dia. sampai meleleh air liur dia..syok sangat agaknya. a-een..a-een..

apa pun..aku syukur sangat. walau pd aku kelihatan anak2 ni nakal, tapi bila di tengah2 komuniti, atau publik, mereka sangat baik tingkah. kalau nak dibandinglkan dengan anak2 orang lain yang nakal la. alhamdulillah. tanggungjawab aku belum berakhir dengan hanya melahirkan diorang. makin berat bila masing2 dah makin besar. semoga aku tabah selalu.

Erza Dalia, Ziyad Erza, Erza Dalili dan Zahin Erza;

kalau dah pandai membaca nanti, mama dan papa nak anak2 tahu yang walau kami selalu marah dan memukul, tak pernah sekali pun terdetik rasa benci dan menyampah. kami sayang anak2. mama sangat sayang anak2 mama. walau apa pun yang keluar dari mulut mama masa marahkan kalian, itu hanya syaitan semata. waktu marah, memang syaitan je yg berkata-kata. sebab tu jgn bagi ma marah selalu, ya? ma minta maaf kalau ada apa2 tingkah atau perkataan mama yg buat anak2 mama terguris dan terasa hati. sayang antara adik beradik selalu. bila mama dah tak ada, atau bila2 senang dah dewasa dan dah berkeluarga nanti, buka2 lah blog mama ni (kalau ada lagi la). baca luahan hati mama. baca apa yang mama coret ttg setiap tingkah anak2 mama yang mama sayang. moga nanti satu hari, andai berdepan dengan tingkah anak2 kalian pula, kalian tahu apa yang perlu di lakukan. dalam hati mama, hanya ada kalian. kasih sayang mama, sangat tebal untuk kalian.

Sometimes, it's just my luck!

Goodness!

yesterday i brought all my kids to our panel clinic in shah alam. right after I picked Dalia from school. Since my hubby's workplace is in shah alam, we decided to just meet up there. the beginning was okay. met papa, met the doctor (for Dalia and Ziyad got flu), had lunch and head straight home.

what's 'fun' started here.

on the way back home, there was a road block by JPJ. Luckily, my kids were all wearing seat belts. I was so confidence that there won't be any problems since we were all fastened to our seats. first glance, the officer just saw me and Zahin on the front. when he stopped us, and as i rolled down my window, he got surprised for there were another three children at the back seats (ha ha..the look on his face was quite a scenery..hehehe). then i was asked for my licence and IC. again, in full confidence i reached for my handbag and started to take out both documents needed by the officer. as i took out my licence, i felt my blood stop rushing through all my veins. inside i said 'damn!!!' My licence has expired, in July! I was so blaming myself for being so confident. can't stop praying though, not to be given any tickets. the look on the officer's face, when i handed out my 'dead' licence? you guess it yourself. but i was saved, by my children. not that they asked for mercy directly but maybe the officer himself has kids and maybe my children reminded him of his. told him i didn't notice that my licence has expired and that i had to take them to the clinic, he seemed to understand. he asked about Zahin, how old is my child. and when i told him i just gave birth to Zahin 4 months ago, he let me go. he can't stop looking at my children. convincing me that he might think of his children too. before i left, he reminded me to ask my hubby to help me renewing my licence. he also ask me to drive safely and did stop the incoming car to let me reverse and drive away. Oh my..how i felt so relieved!

i thank God for not letting anything bad happened throughout our journey.
i thank my children for being so charming, adorable and behaving so nicely (they were scared of the authority, i assumed).
and i thank the officer for understanding the situation. too bad i forgot his name. but i didn't forget his face. i'll definitely remember him if we ever bumped into one another, someday. but please, not in ticket-giving situation.. :)

Erza Dalia & Erza Dalili

both are my beloved princesses. they have their own characteristic and i love them.

Dalia is 5 and now can be relied on to look after her younger siblings (don't put full responsibility on her, she's just 5!). well, only for a few minutes, of course. sometimes her over confidence in 'handling' the situation between her young siblings held me aback and gasping for air. how do you feel when a 5-year-old, 16kg's girl carried out from bedroom her 4 1/2 months old, 7.5kg's brother to the living room? well, i was shocked. see, she was so confidence in herself. i was in the kitchen, preparing hi-tea (duhhh!). it was almost 5.30pm and they were all in the bedroom (luckily the bedroom is downstairs and it only took her about 10-15 steps to the living room), just awoke from their day nap. i was afraid she would stumble on something and fell. it would injure both of them. only God knows how i felt that time. but hey, she showed that she's a big sis and she can be counted on, right? i did compliment her and at the same time asked her not to do it again for it was such a dangerous act for both of them. she seem to understand, I hope. ha ha ha!

and my little Lili..(we call her Darling)

goodness. she's so adorable. being the 3rd one, she's so hard headed. wise and full of funny ideas. whiny too. she loves singing. and she can sing any songs. even something you never heard of. yup..she creates songs. a composer one day? who knows. one thing for sure, her acts, her behaviour is actually unexplainable. if only i have a cctv. then i'd display all her doings, everyday!

whose fault?

i know. been in the situation. even though it doesn't come everyday, every moment..it came. once, twice, several times.

i hate pointing fingers. i understand. and that's what i expected to be getting from others around me, too. UNDERSTANDING.

well, maybe this is just His saying, His sign, telling me i've done wrongs and its time for punishment. and He punishes me, His way of what He knows i can endure.

accepted, Ya Allah..humbly.

untuk mereka yang bakal mendirikan rumah tangga...

note: i got this via email. kalau ada yang arif tentang hadis2 rasulullah, tolong confirmkan ya..

RASULULLAH S.A.W. ADAB UZ-ZIFAF Ahmad telah menceritakan :

"Telah menceritakan kepada kami oleh 'Amru bin Hafsah dan Abu Naar dari Muhammad bin Al-Haitham dari Ishak bin Hanjih, dari Husaif dari Mujahid daripada
Al-Khudri yang berkata : "Rasulullah s.a.w. telah berwasiat kepada Saidina Ali bin Abi Talib r.a di mana baginda telah bersabda : "Wahai Ali, bila pengantin perempuan masuk ke dalam rumahmu, maka (suruh ia) tanggalkan kasutnya ketika ia duduk dan (suruh ia) membasuh kedua-dua kakinya . Maka sesungguhnya apabilakamu berbuat demikian Allah mengeluarkan tujuh puluh (70 ) jenis kefaqiran dari rumah kamu,! dan Allah s.w.t. menurunkan tujuh puluh ( 70 ) rahmat yang sentiasa menaungi di atas kepala pengantin sehingga sentiasa keberkatan itu meratai setiap penjuru rumahmu dan pengantin itu sejahtera dari penyakit gila, sawan (gila babi) dan sopak selama mana ia berada di dalam rumah tersebut. Laranglah pengantin itu daripada
memakan dan meminum empat ( 4 ) jenis makanan ini pada minggu pertama perkahwinan iaitu :

1. Susu

2. Cuka

3. Coriander (Ketumbar)

4. Apple Masam


Saidina Ali r.a bertanya : "Wahai Rasulullah, mengapakah empat jenis makanan ini di larang..?"

Baginda menjawab : "Kerana rahim perempuan itu kering dan sejuk, dengan sebab dari empat perkara (makanan) ini untuk menghalang dari dapat anak. Sesungguhnya
tikar di penjuru rumah adalah lebih baik daripada perempuan yang tidak dapat anak."

Saidina Ali r.a ! bertanya : "Wahai rasulullah, mengapakah cuka itu di larang..? (semasa haid dan semasa minggu pertama perkahwinan) ."

Baginda menjawab : "Apabila ia minum cuka semasa haid, sesungguhnya haidnya itu tidak akan bersih selama-lamanya secara sempurna .

Mengenai Coriander (ketumbar) ia mengganggu haid di dalam perutnya dan menyukarkan kepadanya kelahiran .

Tentang Apple masam, ia memotong haid sebelum masanya
maka menjadikan haid itu berlalu begitu saja dengan
sebabnya."

"WAHAI ALI PELIHARALAH WASIATKU INI SEBAGAIMANA AKU
TELAH MEMELIHARANYA DARI JIBRIL A.S."

weird things, incredible things? happened twice, today..

this morning, around 10a.m my house had a unique visitor. they were two of 'them'. i think they were from the Warblers family. (do warblers travel till this far? to malaysia?)

wondering who? nope, it should be 'what'.

they were birds, small birds. 2 of them, singing loudly and happily flapping their wings in front of my door! hovering and should i say 'loitering' around my porch for about 5 minutes! it was an awesome sight. i was stunned with excitement and big grin on my face. well, i do love birds. not crows, ok..not in my list. to add up spices, early this morning the Magpies too, were singing happily on the neighbour's antenna across my house. do they know i just love watching them? i was suddenly in happy mood, even though i was annoyed earlier on.

it's incredible, on how small creature can change someone's mood, day or even world!

now, let's talk about something bad that happened (unfortunately, today).

my outside wall, being peed on! what the F!! hate to accuse, but it's definitely human pee. but of whom could it be? it stained my wall, like when a guy peed on the side wall of any buildings anywhere. but one question lingering in my head; 'whose is that tall?' my hubby is 5' 7", but the stained was not even parallel to normal human groin level. it was like, urmm... someone, standing on top of someone, just to pee on my wall.

weird? yeah..definitely!

lama sangat rasanya...

it looks like MY plan in continuing my study in language proficiency will be postponed, again. why? this is due to financial condition and of course, zahin is still nursing. well, knowledge can be obtained anytime, anywhere no matter what condition i'm in, right?

now, let's talk about a-een (zahin).

he is one of the reasons my blog isn't updated for quite sometime. i am busy handling the kids, and zahin the utmost. good God, he's developing sooner than expected. he manage to put me in awe, every time i spend time with him. watching him grow, carrying his smile and look in my dream every night, weighing him and felt heavy every time i bathe him, and listening to his giggles and cries everyday. and my heart almost stopped whenever i was 'tested' in feeling of losing him. you know, sometimes i do feel like that. i'm scared actually, to pour all my love; heart and soul to my family, especially my kids. i'm scared of losing them. and a-een caught me. i fall in love deeply with him everyday. he's so nice, so kind and so understanding. even he's only 4 months old!

last friday was my mum's open house. it was great. mum will do it almost every year. to cope demands from her staff and colleagues. when mum's house is open for hari raya, it will be a battalion attack! two branches of LHDN's will storming in, PJ and Shah Alam. and to add the suspence, our food was in critical condition! tak cukup beb!! mujur la bab sedara mara belah malamnya, tak ramai yang nak melantak sangat and we spent most of the time chatting and updating each other's situations. the next day, i was all flat out. kalau aku yang tak seberapa tu pun penat, mak apatah lagi. her house is not that grand, but it's a standard 22 x 75. to go and fro the front and back, is totally tiring. plus, since it was a feast, every move needs to be fast. no slow pace area! luckily, my children were all behaving themselves. a-een especially. asleep by the time we arrive, woke up when the 1st batch of guests gone, asleep after breastfeeding, woke up again at 6pm when the crowds' clear and asleep again till 9pm. fed him again and he continued asleep till we reach home later that night. baik, kan? hehehe...

it was fun..and tiring too!

btw, i brought pudding for my mum's feast and it was gone in a blink of an eye. ha ha ha..never thought it would be so good, for a first timer!

Raya..Raya!!

gila seronok raya nih...tgk gambar je la ye..

venue: our home
date : 20/09/2009 (1 Syawal 1430)
occasion: AidilFitri & bday celebration (Erza Dalia 5, Erza Dalili 2)

minggu yang saaaaaangat sibuk!!

darling dalili sudah mencecah 2 tahun. tak ada apa2 celebration pun. cuma bernyanyi-nyanyian dan disambut dengan tepuk meriah oleh si darling. minggu ini sangat sibuk. rasanya berbelanja utk keperluan raya; kuih, duit raya, baju kasut anak2, mama papa, ditambah pula dengan persiapan sambutan harijadi si kakak, dalia pd 1 syawal ini, hampir cecah rm1000. uhhhh...bila dikira-kira, takut juga tgk figure. papa kata, semua ni memang rezeki anak2 dan mereka juga yang berhak.

ya. satu syawal nanti, harijadi dalia. anak sulung aku akan mencecah usia 5 tahun. memandangkan tarikh itu sangat hampir dgn tarikh lahir darling, kami kongsikan sambutannya. itu membuatkan suasana 1 syawal nanti mungkin yang paling meriah sepanjang berumahtangga ini. rasanya, syawal tahun ini paling indah. dan yang pasti, paling memenatkan. bayangkan persiapan yang perlu dilakukan. dengan anak2 yang berempat ini, segalanya memeningkan. aku syukur sangat, ibu mertua pandai memasak. dan syukur tak terhingga juga, beliau sudi menyumbang tenaga untuk menyediakan juadah nanti. dengan RM300 aku masih rasa kurang pasti samada jumlah itu cukup untuk ibu mertuaku itu. sebagai ibu, dan nenek, pasti dia tak banyak bunyi. sebagai anak menantu, itu tugas kami untuk menilai dari airmuka dan tingkah beliau. terima kasih juga utk adikku eleena, yang menghadiahkan baju raya utk anak2 buahnya (5 orang semuanya, 4 anak aku, 1 anak adik aku)..mak aku, mungkin akan sibuk nanti di rumah aku. tahun ni aku katakan syawal paling indah, kerana semua ahli keluarga akan datang beraya di rumah aku. kedua belah pihak, termasuk keluarga mertuaku. meriah bunyinya, bukan? ya..aku sendiri tidak sabar rasanya untuk bertemu 1 syawal.

oh ya, darling sudah sangat pandai berbicara. pandai sangat mengambil hati mama dan papanya. ada saja tingkah dan laku setiap hari, yang samada meruntun jiwa mahupun mencuit hati. yang terbaru, subuh 3 hari lepas. sewaktu papa menyuruh darling tidur, darling dengan selamba menjawab;

'apa papa ebok...'

terkesima, terkedu dan kelu seketika kami berdua. mak aku pesan, anak2 yang bijak, perlu dipantau perkembangan mereka. perlu perhatian ekstra. dan aku faham maksudnya.

sabtu lepas, kami berbuka puasa di rumah mak. sepanjang hari aku menelefon utk memberitahu kedatangan kami, namun tidak berjawab. sudahnya aku cuma sampaikan pesan pada kak chik. terkilan sedikit, sebab mak ada majlis berbuka puasa dan tadarus pula di pejabatnya. dan kami berbuka tanpa emak. sebenarnya, aku sudah beberapa hari kebelakangan ini, terasa sangat rindu dengan ayah. entah kenapa. kalau bersembang dan bercerita dengan suami, dan terkeluar pula cerita berkaitan ayah, aku jadi sebak tidak semena-mena. dan sabtu lepas, waktu berbuka itu, aku duduk berhadapan dengan ayah. dengan adik2 di keliling. dengan suami di sisi. dan anak2 di meja hadapan, berasingan dari kami. aku tenung ayah. aku perhati ayah. sambil bersembang-sembang tentang pelbagai perkara, mata aku terus memamah wajah ayah. dan rasa sayu itu mencucuk-cucuk hati. ayah sudah di mamah usia. tiga tahun lagi, cecah 60 umurnya. bola matanya sudah ada garis kelabu. emak juga sebenarnya begitu. cuma sebagai anak, kita terasa seakan masih anak-anak dengan mak ayah. masih terasa seperti budak-budak. mahu dimanja dan diberi perhatian selalu. sebagai anak sulung, yang selalu buat hal dan sering terasa dipinggirkan, aku jadi sakit hati sendiri. marah dengan diri sendiri. lepas solat maghrib, ayah dan adik2 bersiap utk ke masjid utk tarawikh, dan aku sekeluarga bersiap utk pulang. Allah maha mengetahui, bagai memberi ruang untuk aku. ayah yang sudah masuk ke dalam kereta, keluar pula. katanya mahu ikut nina sekali, enjin keretanya tak mahu hidup. aku yang bergegas-gegas turun, hanya bertuala dan ber t-shirt, keluar mendapatkan ayah. aku salam dan cium tangan ayah. aku peluk ayah erat2. aku cium pipi ayah. dengan airmata yang berlinang aku katakan pada ayah, "kakak rindu sangat dengan ayah."

sesungguhnya, aku sangat rindu.

dengan mak juga begitu. aku sedih, aku sayu melihat matanya. menyaksi kepenatannya balik kerja. merasa perihnya dia mengurus rumah dan keluarga. kenapa tidak aku terlihat itu semua dulu? ambil mudah, ego dan keras kepala. aku mengaku sikap aku yang buruk ini.

andai waktu boleh diputar semula...

siapalah aku, mengharapkan sedemikian peluang adanya.

my darling lili...

she'll turn 2 this coming september 16th.

she's beautiful and growing brighter each and everyday. the severe cut she had last week, seems fine to her but not forgotten. even the bandage is officially off of the finger, she still raised the particular up to avoid getting wet in the shower, as if it was still heavily bleeds. funny, this cheeky little girl.

as in communication skills, she's way too good for the age of 2. say 'terima kasih' and she'll reply 'ama-ama'. when entering the house, she'll greet 'kummm..' (assalamualaikum). she talk too much, you know. and when being scolded or said no to this and that, she'd say 'mama niihhh!' with her jelingan mata (what to say this in english, i do not know. cheh!) she can even recite doa before sleeping, you know. she learns new vocab everyday. not just from us, the family, but also from her surroundings e.g tv, neighbours etc.

oh, yeah, she sulks and gets angry too. even nags. ha ha ha.. a tough rival for her brother. and she definitely love to scream!!

pantun, in english?

last night, my hubby and i spent our time shaking the bedroom with laughter and tears. it was all started when we were talking about what we were like, back in school, years ago. told him, that i remember stating that i wanted to be an interpreter when i grow up. and my hubby suddenly got this idea. started with P. Ramlee's movies, which the subtitles were direct translations, from malay to english e.g 'intan payung' to 'diamond umbrella'.

so, we filled the night, trying hard to remember some famous malay pantuns and laughing hard following the results.

malay pantun A:-

dua tiga kucing berlari
mana nak sama si kucing belang
dua tiga boleh ku cari
mana nak sama cik adik seorang

english pantun A:-

two three cat runaway
where can be the same the striped one
two three i can find
where can be the same with you litlle miss

malay pantun B:-

sorong papan tarik papan
buah keranji dalam perahu
suruh makan saya makan
suruh mengaji saya tak tahu

english pantun B:-

push the plank, pull the plank
keranji fruit in a boat
ask me to eat and i eat
ask me to read i don't know

malay pantun C:-

buah cempedak di luar pagar
ambil galah tolong jolokkan
saya budak baru belajar
kalau salah tolong tunjukkan

english pantun C:-

the jackfruit outside the fence
take the galah, please poke it
i am a kid, just learned
if so, correct me if i'm wrong.

had enough? omg..

we stopped when i started to laugh so hard i coughed badly with tears and ran out of ideas on the english part. especially when we reached one famous malay pantun:-

kajang pak malau kajang berlipat
kajang hamba mengkuang layu
dagang pak malau dagang bertempat
dagang hamba menumpang lalu.

english, anyone?

i'm falling in love...deeply with Zahin Erza

he has grown. bright, handsome and well. i lost for words, every time i hold him in my arms. bathe him, is now quite a load. he's gaining weight! now, at 75 days old, he weighs 6kg. he cooed too, and even started to laugh. oh my! how come babies nowadays are so clever?

my, oh my...

last sunday, we went to my parents' house for buka puasa. things went well. my younger brother along with his family of 3, also joined the fun get-together ceremony.

since 1st ramadhan, we break-fast accordingly. not too much and not too little. simple, is the best word. my hubby and me, takes turn to cook. luckily we both are good in cooking. :)

wanna know what happen today?




my little darling got a quite severe cut on her right little finger. due to deliberately poking into a working medium-blowing fan. she got me panicked for a few minutes. she cried continuosly for half an hour. i know. it hurts. the blood spurs on the floor and smeared the computer desk. her sweet small finger..oh my. i used my t-shirt to stop the bleeding and that stained it badly. nevermind my t-shirt.

currently, she is sitting on this computer desk, singing loudly. she seem to have forgotten the pain. poor darling. why is she so full of curiosity? she's only 2!

we live by the rules- but then, rules are made to be broken..

that was what we (my hubby and me) were discussing about when we went out for a date yesterday (Thursday, Aug 20).

well, we weren't discussing it seriously, though. it was just occurred when we met bunch of drivers who were driving so slow near the interchange exits, honking without manners, driving like a tortoise among a rapidly moving vehicles and such. and it happened yesterday.

and in our beautiful 6-hour-limited-time date yesterday, we also talked about rules in our lives; amongst family and children. funny, we thought. for we couldn't missed talking about our beloved children, even though we were on a date (well, not really a date for baby zahin was also around).

we went to the bank for a while. just to drop off something. then my ex colleagues held us a moment, for they wanted to see zahin. about 15 mins, and we took off. straight to Mid Valley.
we parked at The Gardens, for there was no parking available at the MV. full! we wonder why did that happen. isn't Thurday a weekday? it was only 3pm and yet the parking lots were full. left us no choice, we headed to the premier parking at The Gardens. more comfy, of course. but the charges, made us shook our heads.

there was nothing much activity we had actually. just a sightseeing, snack eating and some shopping. he fell in love with a pair of shoe at Aldo (The Garden mall) but the cost was RM300++. he didn't buy it. save it for later. wait till there's a discount. then we went to MJ at MV. there papa bought a baju melayu from alain delon. it was stunningly beautiful for i couldn't let him wait till later to buy it. then we bought some gift, for the children. and me? i got sloggi undies. ha ha ha..

we had our snack at Belanga and i had ice cream later on. we left the beautiful and heart throbbing The Gardens around 7pm. being charged RM9 for the parking. but one thing i can't forget regarding the parking fee is what my hubby said to me about it. he said 'RM9 is nothing, compared to the sweet moments i spent with my wife today.'

now tell me, how can i not love this man? :)

what's the different between man and woman..

this is a very common issue.

debated here and there. whether facts or fibs, as long as it involves these two unique creature of God's made, it will be a hot topic.

in my opinion, both are the same. woman will look at man as somewhat annoying and likewise, the man. why am i saying this? look at the example.

women are complicated, and sometimes petty. trivial things will most of the time annoys women, till rampantly angry and causes sulking, etc. the way women handles things happen to, around and within them are uniquely amazing.

men are awesomely simple. everything made simple and will be simple around them. they don't like these witty things and messy feelings. they like everything's in order and they don't like to take orders. they were born to be leaders. it's either they will be the good ones, or bad ones, they decide.

God made us unique. each and everyone of us. so, be wise and stop blaming each other. when anger collides, sit down and think calmly. not about whose fault, but about what wrongs have we done ourselves. this way, maybe the world will be a little more peaceful.

perhaps.

bila waktunya sesuai...

ambil nafas dalam2. selesakan diri sebaik mungkin. tenangkan minda.

dan luahkan segala yang terbuku di dada.

itu yang aku lakukan malam tadi.

berbincang empat mata dengan suami. tatkala anak2 sudah lena dibuai mimpi. kami berdua berbicara tentang keluarga, tentang hidup, tentang masa depan, hingga jam 1 pagi.

mungkin kesimpulan dari perbincangan itu, tidak sepenuhnya seperti apa yang diharapkan. tapi situasi demikian sudah cukup memberi kelegaan pada perasaan. akhirnya, yang dituntut adalah persefahaman.

sudah ada sifat2 tolak ansur dan bersedia dengan cabaran sedemikian?

maka anda sudah siap untuk mengharung bahtera kehidupan. moga segalanya dipermudahkan.

p/s: papa, thanks for lending me your ears and willing to accept whats this and that..

what is wrong being a housewife?

well, nothing is wrong, of course.

cuma ianya satu tugas yang menuntut kesabaran yang maha tinggi.

kelihatannya seperti mudah, santai dan boleh bersenang lenang.
kedengarannya seperti sekadar goyang kaki.

hakikatnya?

takde lah susah sepanjang masa.
ada waktu, santai juga.
ada ketika, relax adanya.
ada saatnya, goyang2 kaki juga.

cuma kena sabar dengan banyak perkara. kena pandai juga mengurus masa.

darling dah pandai mengarut dan berlakon..

lawak gila budak ni.

semalam, masa keluarga mertua aku datang makan2 kat umah, darling menunjuk laku. of course, dia mmg comel. heheheh..

bila mereka semua dah balik, abg yad dia ikut sekali, dia mungkin terasa kosong. maklum, geng bergaduh takde, dah ikut tok ki dgn wan. lalu, masa papa bertelefon, darling juga berlakon. bertelefon juga but using a tv remote as her phone. muehehehhehe..sungguh2 lak tu dia bercerita. siap ada assalamualaikum lagi..

one more thing dia pandai..

membebel macam mak nenek with this word:-


Ya Allah...! (her version surely like this: ya awwaaahhh...)

darling..darling..

pacifiers..pacifiers!

this pic was taken by my 3-year-old boy, Ziyad

i don't want to put on a pacifier (puting) to my baby Zahin. but it's been 2 days now, he's been wanting to keep on nursed. mana larat beb! tak buat keje la aku...but this is a great challenge for me. breastfeeding him and at the same time have to look after other 3 of my children, to check out on house chores, cook, BATH, and lots more. being a mother is not just giving birth and then let the faith control the flow. YOU have to be aware and let yourself control the flow, with faith as your sidekick. uhh..sounds easy eh? blah! it's not!

guess i have to try to put on pacifier on Zahin today. agaknya la. my heart still forbid it. why? coz i don't want his looks changed. you know, children on pacifiers normally 'jongang'. the formations of the jaw and teeth will evolve following the action of the mouth while sucking on the pacifier. tu yang aku tak nak tu!! lucky the pacifier isn't in stock. have to ask my hubby to buy it. asked already actually. but depends on my ability to hold back, to strain myself from letting him to pacify. weighing almost 6kg at 2 months old, Zahin nursed well. maybe because i ate well. me? eating well? no lah..often skips and eats whenever i have the time. i hang on to milo or horlicks, if i'm hungry but not enough time to eat properly. it's okay. i'll try to eat properly. and maybe Zahin will nurse properly too. ha ha ha!

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Kebaikan L-Carnitine:

- Menambahkan tenaga dan mengekalkan tahap kecergasan badan sepanjang hari
- Ianya ramuan yang bagus bagi melindungi jantung, saraf dengan bertindak sebagai agen antioksida

5. Inulin

Satu ramuan yang diperkayakan dengan fiber daripada buah-buahan. Rasa yang manis tetapi tidak diserap kedalam badan.

Kebaikan Inulin:
- Bagus untuk kencing manis
- Memberi tenaga tambahan
- Meningkatkan kadar metabolisme badan

6. Soy Protein
Soy protein adalah sumber daripada protein lengkap tanpa kolesterol menggantikan protein haiwan.

Kebaikan Soy Protein:

- Ramuan tanpa kolesterol
- bagus untuk penjagaan jantung
- Soy protein melancarkan kitar haid dan kesuburan wanita

Kesan buruk bahan kimia dalam amalan diet

Kesan jangkamasa pendek

Gementar dan berdebar, letih, susah tidur, panas badan, pitam, kerap buang air besar, kegemukan mendadak bila berhenti.

Kesan jangkamasa panjang

Kerosakan pada hati dan buah pinggang.

Kebaikan Jus Diet Mate 5

- Mudah
- Berkesan
- Semulajadi
- Selamat
- Tanpa rasa lapar
- Tanpa rasa sakit
- Tanpa bersenam
- Bertenaga dengan minda yang cergas
- Menyihatkan jantung
- Bagus untuk kencing manis dan darah tinggi
- Membantu kesuburan wanita
- Bagus untuk saraf dan sendi
- Melancarkan usus
- Merawat masalah kemurungan, susah tidur
- Merawat migrane dan gastrik
- Mengatasi masalah stroke mengurangkan kolestrol

what goes around, comes around..remember that it mind.

i have once told this one person deary to my heart the statement above.

the person who had created a mini-scene (so called) in my life. who made statements towards me like everything around me and anything about me, lingers around the person's fingertips.

a couple of weeks ago, i found out about the same thing (somebody who was close to that person, made alike statement, claiming that he/she knows best about that person's life) and that person put a distance from that somebody.

and around a few days back, that somebody being treated the same by other fella, who's close enough to know almost everything about that somebody.

huh...funny ehh??

Zahin Erza

a-een (panggilan utk zahin) dah makin debab. minggu depan dia akan mencecah usia 2 bulan but he weigh 5.5kg already. imagine how struggling i am, bathing him at the sink! if ever his father home, i'll ask him to bathe a-een. tak larat beb!

i can't wait actually, to see him grow. he's a magnificent child. i sense something special and extra charm in him. i can't help it but always say that he's so cute and handsome. he's bright and clever. looking at him, asleep or awake sends pleasure and calmness. he is a miracle indeed. he brought surprise and adding joy and happiness in our lives. he completes me. he completes my love. and he proves how mighty Allah is.

well, i must say and admit that all my children ARE bright. i love them so much. especially when they would suddenly shock us with something we could never imagine coming out from their cute little mouth. you'd stunned, by their brightness. of course, due to the brightness, i often mouth-fight with them. that's what we call a mom's ego. ha ha ha!

be a mother, and you'll understand what i mean. be a good mother, and you'll feel the greatness in them that God gave to you, and only you.

p/s: to Puan Farrah Aiza, congratulations on your newborn baby boy, last August 6, 2009. Selamat berpantang, Fara!!! (somehow i felt we are so close while we actually never met and just communicate thru YM or sms. weird, eh?)

one of my everyday joy.. (daa..???!!)

darling tak sihat. muntah2, lepas makan nasi tadi. sedang aku urus darling di bilik air, yad menjengah. biasalah..nyibuk. aku suh dia pegi depan, jgn sibuk kat dapur (sebab dia bukan boleh tgk org muntah ke, kencing ke, berak ke, kang dia plak nak termuntah), dia masih mundar mandir depan pintu bilik air. dah selesai dgn darling, aku keluar je bilik air, yad berlari ke depan. sambil mulut buat bunyi kereta F1.

tiba2..

gedegang!! keta F1 dia berlanggar. dia trip kat bantal yang bersepah tgh jalan dan terus melanggar pintu gril. mujur bukan sliding door yang di langgar. meraung tak ingat.

dan aku? aku cakap, padan muka! dah setel pakaikan baju darling (dia muntahkan) aku tengok yad. nahhhh, hambek. benjol dan sedikit luka kat dahi. bibir pecah kat dalam. mujur juga gigi tak patah.

ziyad..ziyad..

aku suka tengok anak2 tidur..sangat menenangkan

tenang sungguh tengok diorang tido. macam2 style, kan? hehehe

*******

malam tadi. dalia dan dalili dah tido dalam bilik; dedua demam. zahin biasalah tido juga, tapi di sofa. ziyad, selagi aku tak mask bilik, dia macam kera kena belacan. sudahnya aku suh dia lepak dloo kat depan. pastuh dia ngantuk, aku suh dia tido dlm bilik, dia takmau. dia baring sebelah zahin. aku tgh layan CSI:NY. memula aku tengok dia pun layan tv, sekali lagi aku toleh, dia sudah lena. dan gambar ini berjaya aku snap. sejuk je hati aku nengoknya.


sayang anak2 mama!

sekadar meluah rasa...

ustaz md asri cakap, sahabat (aku lupa lak namanya) rasulullah s.a.w berkata, berzakatlah kamu sehingga kaya.

maksudnya, mereka yang berharta ini, hendaklah terus berzakat sehingga tiada mereka yang miskin wujud di bumi allah ini.

aku syukur sangat aku hidup sederhana dan tidak dalam kategori miskin. aku syukur juga, suami aku agak kerap berzakat walau kami tidak sekaya dato menteri.

yang jadi persoalannya sekarang, apa yang org berada buat, samada berzakat atau tidak, itu urusan dia dgn tuhan.

hal pusat zakat pula, tugasnya untuk mengagihkan zakat kepada mereka yang memerlukan. mereka yang dikategori sebagai susah/miskin.

tengok tv, tengok di jalanan, tengok juga sekeliling, masih ada mereka yang susah. yang miskin dan merempat. kenapa hal ini terjadi, ya?

negara kita masih bersepah orang yang susah dan menadah simpati. bila ada yang susah, mintak derma dan sebagainya untuk pelbagai kes dan sebab, punyalah susah nak dapat bantuan.

TAPI...

bila negara luar ditimpa bencana, nahhhh...laju je bantuan menyusur. hasil titik peluh kerja, pendapatan negara keluar macam air. digembar-gembur sampai merata dunia dapat tahu. mereka yang terkial-kial kais pagi makan pagi, kais petang makan petang terus makan hati. mungkin juga bercucuran airmata, terasa dianaktiri. pelik, kan?

inilah bak kata bidalan 'kera di hutan disusukan, anak dirumah kelaparan'.

lempeng..lempeng dan lempeng...

sudah 3 hari berturut-turut aku masak lempeng.

sementara ada butter sebuku. tepung sebungkus dan susu sekotak.

anak2 aku memang suka lempeng. senang tapi leceh. bahan2 sgt mudah. tapi nak menunggu masaknya tu leceh. api kene kecik, tunggu kena lama. nak buat 10 biji, ambik masa setengah jam lamanya. dan tak dan penuh pinggan, ada je tangan menadah, menunggu. tu yang bikin hangin tuh...heheheh..

today, actually takde plan nak buat lempeng. but disebabkan my hubby tak sihat and dia request lempeng, maka aku buat la jugak. dia makan dengan peanut butter. perghhh...tgk pon sedap.

tapi, aku tak makan lempeng. ntah kenapa.

perubahan yang kelihatan..

ziyad dah ok sket. kalau sebelum ni sejak ada zahin, dia asyik merengek dan mengamuk tak tentu pasal, sekaran dah kurang. masih juga lagi ada hanger yang patah (hanger lama, dah reput pun) bila dia buat hal. tapi terima kasih banyak pada rancangan Wanita Hari Ini yang mana memaparkan topik berkaitan anak2. professor itu amat membantu dalam hal aku mengurus kerenah anak setiap hari.

caranya? patut dah lama praktik. cume sejak ada zahin, aku macam lebih banyak perhatian pada si kecik. mungkin anak2 terasa diabai. dan ekspresi kekecewaan atau mungkin iri hati mereka dilepaskan dengan cara masing2, yang menambah stress aku dalam berhadapan dengan mereka.

dan dalam seminggu ni, aku dah banyak sabar. bila yad mengamuk, aku peluk dan redakan kemarahan dia. secara tak langsung, aku juga reda. sayu hati aku bila suatu ptg, sewaktu aku sedang sibuk dengan zahin, yad memandang aku dengan pandangan yang seolah penuh persoalan dan amarah. namun matanya menunjukkan kesayuan. bila selesai aku susukan zahin dan uruskan dia, aku tanya ziyad, kenapa pandang aku begitu. apa sebabnya dia mengamuk, memberontak. dan jawapan dia amat menusuk hati aku. aku jadi pilu.

"yad rindu mama.."

dan itu juga pencetus aku untuk jadi lebih terbuka dan lebih sabar dengan kerenah anak2. meski tekanannya amat tinggi, aku cuba. aku mau jadi ibu yang baik dan hebat pd pandangan anak2 aku. peduli pada tanggapan dan pandangan orang lain. keluarga aku lebih penting.

Zahin Erza - at 45 days

beratnya sudah mencecah 5kg. tersangatlah kerap menyusu. menjaganya juga senang. alhamdulillah. setakat ni, tak banyak ragam. dah pandai senyum2. dah pandai juga minta dilayan. sangat suka dipeluk dan dicium. and most shockingly, he is now cooing. cooing tu apa? ala..baby talk. yang bunyi 'aa..khe..' tu..

oh ya..btw, gambar di atas ni, ceritanya ada di sini.

comel ke? muka mcm ziyad kekecik dloo.. anak2 aku ni, sepesen jek.. mueheheheh...