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Wednesday, November 26, 2008

uhh..

kali ni nak cakap pasal apa ekk? as usual, i have lost and loads of things to be told but oftenly slipped or gone with the end by the time i finally have time to sit and go online.

yeah..i am 5 or 6 weeks pregnant. and my back hurts like hell. it was ok with my 1st and 2nd child and got a little severe during my third's but this time, i can't even sit on my butt for more than 10 minutes. (i have to do the typing in standing position..). went to smc last nite but since i'm preggy, they can't do nothing. i was asked to come back the next day and meet the specialist who did my surgery last 2003. well, when i told my hubby, his face changed. of course, it wasn't because meeting the specialist but the COST of meeting the specialist. the x-ray, the consultation, etc. what we afraid most, being admitted. the deposit alone is rm1500. daily is rm150-180 (the cheapest rate).

if only...if only...

can't bare leaving my kids alone with my hubby (for he'll send them over to his mom's) since they are all still very small, esp dalili. not to mention their behaviour lately. my mom-in-law..she's old. and she takes care of her daughter's daughter too (about the same age as dalili) and that girl likes to cling on her grandma like, all the time..she might not say NO when we wanted to send our children (they are her grandies too, by the way!!), but the look on her face is very clear. she's tired. i know she doesn't hate them, it's just the tiring that gets in the way, all the time. i understand that.

what i can and will try my best to do now is, hang on and be strong. hoping that God will always help me and try not to question anything and everything too much.

my hubby is busy this week. very, indeed. got some recording to do, studio rental tomorrow, ifa raziah's sound setting this friday (separuh akhir muzik2) and the rehearsal is tonight. can't blame him though..even i want to, badly.


God, You are testing me..

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

syahdu terasa

malam tadi pegi jenjalan kejap satu famili. pg makan eskerim kat 7-11 pastuh nenaon sambil layan lagu alleycats.

time Senandung Semalam berkumandang, tetiba hati begitu sayu.

kenapa?

tetiba terbayang akan situasi, sekiranya kekasih hatiku yang satu itu pergi dulu dariku. payah sungguh rasanya menahan air mata dari jatuh ke pipi.

papa, jagalah kesihatan. kerjalah elok2, bawak kereta bebaik, jgn abaikan keselamatan diri. andainya tak keberatan, selalu2 lah fikirkan mama dan anak2. andai papa pergi dulu, apa akan jadi pada kami kelak? mama tak risau rumah dan kereta tapi kesinambungan keluarga. mama risau akan keadaan mama nanti. takut hati mama tak tabah dan jiwa mama akan goyah. nanti bagaimana pula anak2? saat menuliskan ini pun hati mama sebak. mama sayang papa. tak kiralah macam mana kita selalu bertikam lidah ke, bertekak ke, dalam hati mama cuma ada papa. lagipun kata orang, itu semua kan asam garam rumah tangga. ma minta ampun pada papa, andai mama selalu singgung hati papa. tak terniat pun begitu, cuma situasi kadangkala menjadi penyebab bertingkah sedemikian rupa. jaga diri, papa. selalu2 ingat mama, ya...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

confirm..

aku pregnant..br 3 minggu, menurut kata doktor. uhhh...cabaran makin berat..dlm kepala berselirat memikir pelbagai perkara. beranak memang senang, nak membesar dan mendidik anak, susah. banyak dugaan dan cabaran. dari a-z kena ambil kira. makan, pakai, keperluan harian, lahiriah, pendidikan, pembentukan fizikal dan macam2 lagi. seronok, memang seronok dapat khabar gembira ni. but aku dah expect dah. well, mother's intuition. now i have to be more careful. my backpain have started. my darling Dalili, doesn't want to stop breastfeeding. well, i'm trying, slowly. i fed her bottled milk during the day, though and she seems ok. just at night, when she wants to sleep, she'll look and insist on mommy's milk. luckily i still have it. may god bless me with extra strength with this 4th baby coming. bless us with health and rezeki too, dear God!

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