lama sangat rasanya...

it looks like MY plan in continuing my study in language proficiency will be postponed, again. why? this is due to financial condition and of course, zahin is still nursing. well, knowledge can be obtained anytime, anywhere no matter what condition i'm in, right?

now, let's talk about a-een (zahin).

he is one of the reasons my blog isn't updated for quite sometime. i am busy handling the kids, and zahin the utmost. good God, he's developing sooner than expected. he manage to put me in awe, every time i spend time with him. watching him grow, carrying his smile and look in my dream every night, weighing him and felt heavy every time i bathe him, and listening to his giggles and cries everyday. and my heart almost stopped whenever i was 'tested' in feeling of losing him. you know, sometimes i do feel like that. i'm scared actually, to pour all my love; heart and soul to my family, especially my kids. i'm scared of losing them. and a-een caught me. i fall in love deeply with him everyday. he's so nice, so kind and so understanding. even he's only 4 months old!

last friday was my mum's open house. it was great. mum will do it almost every year. to cope demands from her staff and colleagues. when mum's house is open for hari raya, it will be a battalion attack! two branches of LHDN's will storming in, PJ and Shah Alam. and to add the suspence, our food was in critical condition! tak cukup beb!! mujur la bab sedara mara belah malamnya, tak ramai yang nak melantak sangat and we spent most of the time chatting and updating each other's situations. the next day, i was all flat out. kalau aku yang tak seberapa tu pun penat, mak apatah lagi. her house is not that grand, but it's a standard 22 x 75. to go and fro the front and back, is totally tiring. plus, since it was a feast, every move needs to be fast. no slow pace area! luckily, my children were all behaving themselves. a-een especially. asleep by the time we arrive, woke up when the 1st batch of guests gone, asleep after breastfeeding, woke up again at 6pm when the crowds' clear and asleep again till 9pm. fed him again and he continued asleep till we reach home later that night. baik, kan? hehehe...

it was fun..and tiring too!

btw, i brought pudding for my mum's feast and it was gone in a blink of an eye. ha ha ha..never thought it would be so good, for a first timer!